The art of being overwhelmed
Recently I've been incredibly overwhelmed; to-do lists, tasks, deadlines and the never ending attempts to balance that workload, love my family, cook them good meals/not always order pizza (sorry Domino's!) and make sure their emotional/mental/etc needs are met. Throw in showering, laundry, trying to keep up with instagram, cleaning the house and a general lack of coffee and you'll start getting a picture of my days recently.
Today I sat down and cried because I realized I can't do it all right now. I can't handle all of this at once and even getting small tasks done has been overwhelming. It's not even that I need someone to watch Theo for a few hours, or that I need someone to come help. I just need my brain to stop being so overloaded for an hour or two so I can regroup and replan. A good night's sleep without worrying about all the things I missed out on doing that day would do wonders as well. Hear that brain? Take a break!!
To be completely honest, I don't have a current plan in place to help all any of it but I'm going to start by sitting down with John and making a list of things that HAVE to be done, things that can wait a week or two and things that can wait longer. That way I'm not worried about missing out on things that he needs and we can both brainstorm Theo's needs together.
Another thing I plan on changing is my Friday's. There's a weekly unwind yoga class at one of the local places that I want to try out and see how I like it. My gut instinct is that it'll be really good for me. I've been trying to practice at home but I just can't get into it - I miss the community aspect of practicing with others. The unity of it all. Adding in this practice will not only give me a little time to myself during the week, but it will give me time to rest and regroup. Our weekends are often busy with photo sessions/errands/other work and not always a good time to relax. John's also starting to take work off at 12 on Friday's so he'll be home with us the rest of the day. That'll give us some family time and maybe even date nights every once in a while.
My point in all this is that if you've been beating yourself up for not being able to get it all done, I'm right there with you. And we both need to stop and understand that it's okay. It's okay to have to-do lists that aren't done and it's okay to sleep soundly at night instead of reliving everything you forgot. Take some time for you too. And try your best not to be so overwhelmed by the balancing act that you miss out on the little things. John reminded me today that it's better to take the time and have a tickle fight with Theo than it is to do the laundry. Laughter is part of thriving even when times are hard or overwhelming. I forgot that. So here's your daily reminder to find something to laugh at, something that brings you back into the present and something that relaxes you. It's worth it, promise.